What happens when you surrender?
I had a realization while meditating last night, and here’s the message that came in:
You’ve been caring so much about your dreams, emotions, and thoughts… Yes, even your positive thoughts. Even your greatest desires.
You’ve worked so hard to create a positive outlook in this life and find self-acceptance. But now, you’re holding on to that as if you’re afraid to loosen your grip.
You don’t want to lose control again. You think, “What if I lose this peace and clarity which has helped me create my dreams?”
There’s a subtle difference between holding on to your hopes and dreams with a tight grip, and loosening that grip as you trust that it’s already done. The latter feels like surrendering to the moment, knowing that you’re taken care of.
All is well right now, and all will be well.
That is complete surrender.
Dream big, but then loosen your grip, knowing that it’s already yours.
Your attachment to your dreams, to feeling good, to continuing this momentum is the very thing that’s keeping you from what you truly desire: living in trust and flow in the present moment.
And your desire to hold on to this moment, these good memories, these blissful feelings – even that keeps your mind running and trying to control/record/analyze/preserve… This keeps you from fully BEING in the moment.
How often are you trying to analyze, resist, judge, remember, and hold on to your experiences?
What can you do?
Observe and drop the mind as often as you can, and you’ll find that the present moment becomes brighter, richer, deeper.
The mind will keep coming back to chatter. That’s okay. You can watch it and set it aside, melting deeper into your heart.
In meditation, you experience this. You might start feeling blissful, and immediately the mind gets excited and tries to attach to the feeling. You might have some insights, and the mind will try to remember them so you can use them later.
Tell yourself… it’s okay to forget this. Even this amazing moment, I can let it go now.
You do this in your sleep. When you’re dreaming at night, you have a beautiful dream, but you let it go. You trust that you’ll have another beautiful dream.
Even in the dream, you don’t hold on to the moment and try to remember it. The scene changes fluidly, and you’re fully experiencing each moment – one at a time.
That is presence. In dreams, you’re often more present than in your waking reality. It’s easier to do so because your conscious mind takes a back seat.
Tell yourself:
- It’s okay to forget this.
- I trust that what I’m meant to keep in my heart will stay with me.
- I surrender what I’m trying to control with my mind.
- I let go of my attachment to my greatest hopes and dreams.
This may be the hardest work you do, but if you can surrender to the now more often, you’ll open yourself to another realm of aliveness, flow, and magic beyond what your mind can conceive.
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Love,
Ashmi
